the amount of things i would do for my dog but no one else is starting to alarm me
ne-o-mi asked: Dear past me,
Dear past me,
Be good to yourself. Stop blaming yourself. Realize your worth, and never second guess it. Be happy. Really, all you need to do is choose happiness and it will all fall into place. Unfortunately I’m realizing this far too late, but if I could pass along any useful knowledge to you it would be just that. Choose happiness. And I know what you’re thinking, every obstacle that has come up in your path hardly giving you a break or a breather says you can’t. But you can, and it will make facing those trials and tribulations much easier. You’re doing the best you can to keep your head above water, and you’re doing a great job under the circumstances. Better things are coming your way, just a lot of hard work and a few leaps of faith are what it’s going to take. Nothing you can’t get through, God doesn’t give you more than you can handle.
Always keep going. Stopping and quitting aren’t an option. One of these days you’re going to find people who honestly love you. And they’re nothing short of amazing. Imagine missing out on them, checking out early is so not worth it. They’ll care for you and support you through everything life throws at you. They’ll help you, but you need to help yourself. They’ll love you - but you’ll need to learn to love yourself first. You can’t expect anyone else to love you if you can’t first come to that place of inner peace and acceptance. There’s no reason to not love yourself. Your weight doesn’t define you or break you. Stop feeding into the lies media and society keeps throwing at you, you don’t need to be a size two to be happy. You need to be healthy to be happy. Have that extra slice of pizza, it won’t kill you, I promise.
You’re going to make mistakes, things are going to be out of your control, and it’s okay. Don’t be too hard on yourself. You are human. Just be the best you you can possibly be and work hard in every aspect of your life. You’re also going to make a lot of good decisions and make a lot of personal progress. Trust your gut, it has your best interest at heart. I wish I could help you understand you aren’t as powerless as you think you are. You can accomplish anything you put your mind to. You graduate college, get out of an awful relationship, push yourself out of your comfort zone, and become a better person. And you did that all yourself.
I want you to know that you don’t need to settle for anyone less than you deserve. When he tries to tear you down and demolish your self esteem with low blows, keep your head held high. Hang on to your dignity, and demand respect. You deserve it and are worth it. When he cheats on you once, don’t forgive him. When he tries to blame you for his selfish stupidity, let it fall on deaf ears. It was not your fault. Remember to keep toxic people and relationships out of your life, it’s too short to be miserable and dragged down by negativity. And no, those four years weren’t a waste, they were a lesson. Make sure you learn from it.
When you find love again, be gentle. Be kind. Don’t move too fast and scare him away. Take things at your own pace and really get to know him. Have a good grasp of who you’re giving your affections to. Make sure you appreciate him and let him know exactly how you feel about him. It’ll make you two closer and have a better relationship. Do not settle, morals and standards are best held high. Be yourself, because he’s going to love you for you. And why wouldn’t you want to be yourself? You’re kind of fabulous, if I say so myself.
I believe in you.
if you can watch this entire video straight through you have the most iron fucking will on the actual planet, in the actual universe. you have gigantic balls of steel. i would not fuck with you. you could come in my house and slap my mom and take my cats and i would just let you. if you can watch all of this you scare the shit out of me